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Sep 10, 2015 - Life, The Bible, Trust    No Comments

Called

IMG_1685Like most of you our family is busy trying to settle  into our school year routine and find a rhythm that fits us well.  Because our two oldest boys attend a Christian school 45 minutes away from our house, mornings start really early.  I usually get showered and dressed while my wife Jenn shakes two sleepy boys awake and then fixes breakfast for our family.  We make it a point now to sit and eat together at 6:15am each morning.  I admit its a bit quieter than our dinners together when we are all home together.

Yesterday was a day I was out of rhythm.  I have been fighting a cough and terrible cold so I didn’t want to get out of bed in the first place but I mustered the willpower to get up and get going knowing that I always feel better when I am up and moving.  Around 7:00am my youngest realized that he had left his entire backpack at home by the front door.  We were too far away to turn back so we stayed our course and really in first grade its not a huge deal.  There was no homework in it, just a few leftover raisins and crust from a peanut butter and jelly sandwich that somehow found its way out of his lunch box and into his backpack.

It must have been around 9am that I got my first phone call from my son from this school year saying that he had forgot his lunch in the van.  When eleven o’clock rolled around I drove 25 minutes to get to the school and drop off a lunch.

Many of you go through the same kind of things day in and day out.  It’s life.  It’s full of ups and downs, mountains and valleys, ins and outs, joys ands sorrows.  It’s full of crying babies, spilled drinks, school commutes, forgotten lunches and every once in a while even crust in back-packs.  It’s Life!

What if this mundane life full of routines and rhythms is not what it seems?  What if your morning commute to the office today was more than a sequential set of happenings that dropped you off at your current business position. What if it’s not just happenstance? What if you were to find out that someone had planned it out and put together every circumstance in your life to bring you to right where you are.  Car accidents, breakups, financial pitfalls, tragedies, joy’s, mountaintop’s, valley’s, winding turns that seem to be taking you no where.  Could it be?  Is it possible?

This morning as I was seeking the Lord I came across the book of I Corinthians.  As I began to read I kept coming across the word “called” . Called by God and called to something specific.  All throughout scripture we find God orchestrating circumstances and calling men and women to specific life circumstances.  Now I don’t believe that God forces anyone hands, (and I realize that sin brings consequences that are not inline with his calling for you) however I do believe that God has called you and directed you to where you are today.  Whether that place is a happy place, a frustrating place,  an exciting place, a temporary place or a place you have been planted to grow, God knows where you are because you are His child and you are where you are meant to be.  So stay put, find rhythm, & find the abundance of living in His will. You will find the most joy in the place He has called you.

 

Oct 15, 2013 - Fear, Life, Spiritual Walk, Trust    3 Comments

Detour

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For those of you who know me, you may have noticed that I have tried to keep a lower profile with social media.  The things I have posted have been verses, songs, and sports related.  Maybe because I haven’t wanted to answer questions.  Maybe because I fear being judged.  Maybe because taking my foot off the gas for a while is what I have needed.

Last Sunday October 6th was my last day at Sunnybrook Community Church due to theological differences.  I know that is a broad reason but that really is the heart of the issue.  I have had people speculate and question what else it could have been.  The honest truth is this.  Sunnybrook is an incredible church and is doing amazing things.  They are reaching people, they are growing, they are serving the lowly, they are loving people far from God.  They are a great church and I will forever love the people and staff there.  Since the very first day I have known that we were not yoked together for the long hall.  We fall in different places on some issues and that is okay.  Neither they or I are right or wrong and although most everyone seeks me out wanting to place blame on something or someone, the truth is there is no one to blame.

It is was it is.  God has been moving us along for quite some time and although we do not know where that will take us, we are trusting that God is in complete control.  He is sovereign! I believe that! The hard part is now living that out day in and day out when we cannot see what is around the corner.

This morning I was listening to a song on repeat.  It’s not a worship song or even a Christian song. I can hear the gasps from some  already.  It’s a song called  “Wake me up” by Avicii.

For most of us when trials come we want to wake up after all the hard things are over.  We want to skip the waiting.  We want to bypass the pain.  We want to speak with anger.  We want to be defended.  We want to fast forward through it all. Read these lyrics and see if they do not ring true.

Feeling my way through the darkness
Guided by a beating heart
I can’t tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start

So wake me up when it’s all over
When I’m wiser and I’m older
All this time I was finding myself
And I didn’t know I was lost

During this season of my life I am making the decision to not just get through it.  As much as I would love to wake up tomorrow and be in a new place of ministry I do not want to miss out on the lessons God has for me in the waiting.  Am I tired? Yes!  Is it painful?  More than you know!  Am I scared? I’m afraid so. (no pun intended) I hate these circumstances with every piece of human nature that I posses. But I cling to them knowing that it will produce endurance among other things. I love what Romans 5 3-4 says in The Message

There’s more to come: We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we’re never left feeling shortchanged. Quite the contrary—we can’t round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!

I may not know where God is leading us but I am determined to live in expectancy that we will soon be able to look back and be in awe of the journey we have travelled.

May 30, 2012 - Life, Panic Attack, The Bible, Trust    No Comments

Renewal Day

 

One of the things I love about Sunnybrook Church is that the leadership is committed to the exercise of spiritual renewal.  We are encouraged to take one full day a quarter where we spend half of the day in prayer, scripture reading/meditation.  I started my day off taking my backpack full of books, my Bible, my IPad, and my journal.  I drove out to a local park that has a scenic lake with a  couple of docks.  As I pulled up the sun was gleaming off of the water and I noticed a family of geese on the shore watching my every move.

On one dock were several retired men fishing.  The other dock is a boat dock so no one was out there.  That would be my spot.  I grabbed my Bible and walked out to the dock.  As I sat on the dock I came across Psalm 46.   Take a minute to read it.

Psalm 46

For the director of music. Of the Sons of Korah. According to alamoth. A song.

1 God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.

2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.

4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.

5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.

6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.

7 The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.

8 Come and see what the Lord has done,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.

9 He makes wars cease
to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
he burns the shieldst with fire.

10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

11 The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress

 

I believe that God is sovereign and in ways we cannot comprehend causes us to read exactly what He wants us to read at the moment He wants us to read it.  If you have followed this Blog for any amount of time you will know that I have struggled with panic & anxiety for going on seven years or so.  At times it literally sucks the life right out from me.  I have come to believe that God has allowed this to be a part of my everyday life in order that I can bring encouragement to others who struggle with it as well.  It’s my thorn in the flesh.

I have also come to realize that I am far better off being kept in complete and utter dependance on Jesus Christ than to be puffed up with pride.  I know me.  I mean I really know me.  If I did not have something keeping me dependent on God, it would be very easy for this guy to get full of himself.  But because of His strength working in me each week I realize that I literally can not do what I do week in and week out on stage if it were not for God’s working through me.

Take this past week for example.  I was having an extremely hard morning before the first service.  I was full of anxiety.  So much so that I asked a good friend  to come into a back room and pray with me.  He did and we really saw God move that morning.  The worship was better than it has been in a long time.  The Holy Spirit was so noticeably there!  I didn’t want to leave the stage.  The point is this; God uses our weaknesses for His glory.

So, back to the dock on the lake.  I opened up to Psalm 46 and it became the cry of my heart.  I began committing it to memory.  I walked around the lake reading and quoting it over and over again.  All day today I have said to myself  “God is my refuge and strength an ever present help in trouble…”

This passage has really spoken to me today.  You see the reason for my raise in anxiety levels over the past week is because I have been coming off my anxiety medication for the past month.  I am now on nothing.  It will take a few weeks for the medication to be completely out of my system.  So for now I am trusting and claiming His promises.  I am walking one step at a time and quoting scriptures that help me remember that He is with me every step I take.  He is what allows me to say like the Psalmist “Be still and know that He is God.”  So for this moment I am renewed.